What's up, doc?

Okay, so it's been more than a couple of days. Sorry. I'm a busy bitch. And this isn't really a 'good' post, it's one of those listy things. Sorry. Maybe you'll get a really good post before I dash away to the UK, but I'm not making any promises.

1. So, my wonderful mother has done it again. Just as my actions seem to get to her, hers sometimes get to me. This time the woman gives me a graduation card stuffed with a wad of cash, and I mean a wad, that she has been "saving." She gives me this because, "I'm proud of you, I want to help you, and I will always be your mother, even if you're grown." The bitch made me cry, and it's things like this that make me backpedal on the coming out to her. But I will remain strong this time. I must.

2. But I made her cry, too. Remember I said I had the perfect Mother's Day gift for her? Well, a couple of Christmases ago, she told me how she would love to go to Rockefeller Center one day and see the Christmas tree all lit up. Well, what I did was give her a Joely Wonka candy bar (complete with customized wrapper) containing a golden ticket for a trip to NYC during the 2010 holiday season to see the tree. I decided on next holiday season because I don't know how busy I'm going to be when I start my new fellowship this year and I wanted to give her time to get into walking shape so that we can hit the streets of Manhattan. It will just be the two of us and, I have to say, that I am looking forward to it. I can't wait to treat her to the sights and sounds of the Big Apple, especially after that graduation card.

3. The fam will be here in a couple of days for commencement. It's so weird. Today I was organizing all of my stuff in the lab and beginning the process of cleaning out my desk. This area and grad school itself have become very comfortable. It will really be weird when I get back from this trip and not have to go there.

4. The transition of it all is okay. Right now I'm good, but I don't know what I'll be like when I pull the door down on that Uhaul and drive off. All manner of connections are being tested and will be further tested soon. I know that the strong will survive.

5. I got to spend a great deal of time with the Little Master this past weekend whilst I was in Hamlet for Mother's Day. He is the dearest little creature; I just adore him. He's crawling now and babbling away. He makes me all broody. The fact that every time one turns around, a friend is popping out a baby makes one broody as well.

6. I got to see Toni's little one last week. Such a cutie patootie. There are probably a dozen new little babies in my life in one way or the other right now. Broody indeed.

7. But one doesn't want to raise a little one alone. And one doesn't want to always be alone. Whilst I was visiting Dr. Mavis she shared with me her experience with eHarmony. I knew they were doing the gays now, so I thought it wouldn't hurt to look. Well, they have a separate site with a disclaimer for the gays, which seems a little Jim Crow to me. But I like the way it is done, with quesitons and guided communication. It's kinda like a catalog of men. So, there is some early communication going on with a few gentleman in the vicinity of where I will be moving next month. We'll see what happens.

8. While all that is going on now isn't happening the way I had imagined, I know that it is happening the way in which it should. And so, I keep dreaming and I keep imagining, just putting things out there into the universe, thus the baby steps back into the dating world. I feel like I'm breaking out of the chrysalis. When I get to Charlottesville, I want to fly.